Bell

2011-07-14T20:56:00.003+08:00

2011-06-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

If he treasures you..

He wont hurt you like this..

Not this much..

2011-06-18T22:35:00.001+08:00

i used to smile..

deep from my heart...

i used to..

now..

no longer..

2011-06-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

im so exhausted with the people in my workplace..

im so tired...

really..

2011-06-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

2011-06-12T21:08:00.001+08:00

2011-06-05T21:13:00.004+08:00

I don't know what am i waiting for...

Everyday..

Getting back home after work

I wish you are there waiting for me...

But i know..

It wont happen...

Because..

Im still dreaming..

in the dream you gave..

2011-05-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

Your smile..

2011-05-23T21:49:00.001+08:00

I wonder what will ~~our~~ your life be if you did not down pes..

2011-05-23T19:59:00.001+08:00

You no longer wearing that ring...

Does it mean that we won't be together anymore..?

I once saw a couple wearing the same ring..

I miss the ring..

2011-05-22T01:25:00.001+08:00

Dear.. You have lost the happiness on your Face..

2011-05-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

My heart hurts..

Really..

Im not interesting enough to be in your life..

But you are the peace in my life..

I..

Desperately need peace...

2011-05-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

A shattered heart will never be the same..

My heart hurts so much right now. All these past days have been leading up to this.. all the pain, hurt, doubt, this is where it ends. Heartbreak doesn't begin to describe the utter agony that a person goes through. This constant knot dwells inside as you try and figure out what the hell happened and how we got here. I tried so hard to make it work... people truly are blinded by love though. I was holding on to hope that things could change.

Now I'm alone, tempted to call and see him, remembering all the good times. I hate love when it goes awry. It can be such a beautiful thing, it is what we all want in life... but when things don't work, love is your biggest enemy.

I have a rough couple of days ahead of me. All I want is to be okay again.

But there's still a part of me.. hoping everything is really a dream..

And he will be back again...

Foolish me..

2011-05-14T22:01:00.002+08:00

Waiting to be back into your arms..

wo de xin... Hao xiang ni..

2011-05-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

Wo de xin.... Hao xiang ni...

But you won't return again right..

I know u r just trying to entertain me to leave ur place on that day..

I really wish my wish will come true soon..

"i will come back to this place again.." please.. Don't be the last time...

2011-05-08T20:07:00.003+08:00

This blog is dead..
And so am i...

I realised there is no place for me to write down all my thoughts..
The urge to send you sms..
The urge to post message in facebook...
The urge to call you...
The urge to see you...
The urge to know about you...
I all have to stop from my mind..

Because you said you need time....

But...

How long is your time...

1 day? 1 week? 1 month? 1 year or..
Many many years..
when we are 30 years old..

The feeling in my heart is so unbearable each day..
Trying to control..
But painful..
Only way is to flood myself with things to keep my mind out of you...

But once quiet down..
Once alone..
Once realised n feels it..

I miss you alot...

The feeling of being protected..
Secure..
Safe...
Shelter...
Comfort...
Happiness...

is gone...

真的忍不住。。。

I don't know how much is my limit...

But i afraid..

One day i may breakdown...

Maybe one day when i appeared in front of you..

It might be the last time in this world..

Like you say..

Coward way...

Because there's no reason for me anymore..

My heart hurts..

Because i miss you..

N i couldn't let anyone know...

2011-02-20T11:37:00.001+08:00

I want a world of us...

just us..

at least a day..

which i guess is impossible...

2010-12-10T23:37:00.001+08:00

I know i got no friends..

2010-11-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

On Saturday when having dinner at Sakura at Downtown East..
We saw blood stains in the mall..
Police here n there..
Blood along the way..
I almost stepped onto the blood stains..
But luckily i didnt..
Just got abit shock..
Got trauma..

Heard there's a fight..
And we wondered if the person survived..

Heard the news today..
The person actually died..
19 years old only..
yeah.. only..
i believe at the point in time he was stabbed n bleeding..
He must be full of regrets..
Alot of things not done..
And he has no choice but to die..
I believe if he has a choice..
I believe he wont provoke the gang of tattoo guys..
Never..

Duno why this news actually made me feel and think alot of things..
Feel it's really a pity..

Usually if it's a news. i wont really notice much about it.. or neither feel so sad..
But maybe this time..
I was at the place itself..
Looking at the blood stains..
Imagined how painful n lost the person can be..
Imagined the feeling of dying..
Regrets..
I felt sad..

Regrets..
He was not given a second chance..

2010-11-01T21:28:00.002+08:00

30 & 31st October 2010

One year had passed..

Happy Anniversary to my Dear..

Been through alot..
Study life.. Working life.. Army life..

Alot of things just simply changed so fast like graduation to deciding what's next and making us to adapt in a short period of time..

It's really tough..
And now.. may look stable.. but still.. still in adapting mode..right?

Thankyou for the roses that you gave.. Finally it's red.. (:
Sorry that i actually kinda spoilt your plans for our anniversary.. but afterall.. although we didnt follow your plan.. our heart n mind still feel happy and contented..
Peaceful..
With that nice rainy weather..

The lighted candle heart..
In the dark..
Touched me..

The feeling that i never had before..
The feeling of touched..

At the point in time..
Your xi xin.. carefully lighted up the candles blown by the wind..
again n again..
Making alot of effort to make me happy..
and i did..

The card you wrote..
I read it after you left..
i hate to say goodbye..
After sending you off from my house..

The card..
Made me smiled n made me cry..
Tears just rolled down without realizing it..

Thankyou..

2010-10-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

Bell realised..
Her smile is given by him..

But she has lost a smile ..
a smile that is lost at the point
when i wrote the my last fullstop in my last exam paper in poly...

2010-10-06T21:29:00.002+08:00

2 October 2010
SATURDAY!
Woke up at 6am to attend Jerald's POP at the Marina Floating Platform..
awwww..
6am...
I wondered when was the last time i wake up at 6am..

Sweaty him..

Took videos to capture every moment for him to remember as memories..
24km route march from changi to the center of singapore..
During the ending of the parade, there's a cheer from the army guys..
It's sooo cute.. n cool..
Everyone shouting with one voice.. n so loud.. with actions somemore..
So ke aii...
^^
and at the very moment where caps are thrown up into the air..
I felt proud of him..
Touched.. n proud...
(:
Xin ku le..

2010-09-20T22:11:00.002+08:00

18 Sept 2010

A yummy lunch after a big illness during the week..
awww
But no prataaaaa~
Where's the prata mannnnnn!~~ T.T

At AMK hub
Poor slurpee being bullied by people..
Don't know why the people got no brains or what..
Like to hit the slurpee as if it's fake one..
HEYY!! THERE'S SOMEONE WORKING HARD INSIDE UNDER THE HOT SUN!!
WHY BULLY IT!!!! =(

Poor slurpee still have to remain cheerful..
awww..
Good job guy..

More photos up tml..
Lazy todayyy~~
I had a nice dinner with him on saturday.. (:
And being with him to see fireworks without planning..
So nicee..

2010-09-20T22:05:00.002+08:00

11 Sept 2010

Kite flying day!
Finally i get the smiley kite up into the sky..

Looking at the smiley kite in the sky..
Makes me feel smiley at the very moment..
Peaceful..
N happy (:

2010-09-19T12:12:00.003+08:00

Refused to face a brand new day each day..
Refused to face a brand new week each week...
I hate it..
I hate working..
I hate living..
I hate being controlled by time
I want to lead my life..
But..
Money is the factor..

I wish he's not controlled by life too..
But we both are..
And will be freed one day..
One day..

Im tired..

Bell is really tired...

And i dont want to concern about people again..
Nvrr...

2010-08-15T21:02:00.001+08:00

I realised im really not strong enough..
I keep missing you..
I know im not suppose to worry you..
But..
Im really not strong..
And i hate learning to be strong..
The feeling hurts n it sucks!
Breakdown...

2010-08-15T20:51:00.004+08:00

Pizza for you (:

Roses from you...
The roses..
U never gave anyone before..
Except me..

Thankyou..

2010-08-15T15:35:00.001+08:00

Should plan for my 21st birthday real soon..

2010-08-02T20:18:00.002+08:00

You said..
You can endure physical pain...
But cannot endure emotional pain..

I know..
and i can feel it...

Day 5..

2010-07-31T12:40:00.005+08:00

Happy 9th month anniversary .. (:
Though u aren't here..
But i know you wish you were here..

Day 3 for you..
First two days managed to get your calls..
And hiding under the bed yesterday to call me..
Thankyou for thinking of me and missing me..
There's so much things i wanna know abt you inside camp..
But i know you are tired after a tiring day..
I shall wait until i'll see you again..

Each time i hear your voice...
Repeating how much you love me each time..
Repeating how much you miss me each time..
I feel like crying..
But i know i have to endure it..
Because im not suppose to cry and make you worry..
Your voice..
Sounds so poor thing..
Lonely..
And you cant do anything about it except waiting for time to pass..
And get your feets out of the camp after 2 weeks..

When i heard you say..
When u book out after 2 weeks..
You wanna spend as much time with me..
That sentence..
Meant alot..
And showed alot..

Waiting for your call again..

11 more days..

2010-07-30T21:31:00.003+08:00

It's the first friday without you...
=(

9th month tml..
Love you..

2010-07-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

Suddenly remembered..
i actually knew u since year 1..
the first day in poly..
the first day in lab..
the first day as my lab partner..
the first time i poke your finger for biology practical..
i actually knew u that long..

Take care Jerald..
Counting down the days to see you again..
14 days..

2010-07-27T22:38:00.001+08:00

2010-07-27T22:27:00.003+08:00

Sillygirl..
you this sillygirl..
最后还是忍不住。。
哭了。。

It's just another part of our life..
Admit it..
Accept it..
It will make us grow..

2 weeks or 2 years..
All will end soon..
And I will be stronger..
N be there..

Misses and more misses..
Hope our love will be stronger..
<3

2010-07-24T21:41:00.002+08:00

Right now..
I seriously wish i doesnt existed at all..
At least I wouldnt feel the disappointment, sadness and all the emotions..

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Recently im so into kite flying...
Although right now didnt manage to get the kite fly up in the sky after 2 tries..
I know it will be so peaceful n nice to fly a kite..
And i believe i can do it one day..
If the wind is strong enough..

There's no wind today! rawrr!

5 more days n he will be in army..
Well.. it's just 2WEEKS..
yea...
2 WEEKS ONLY MAH...
....
....

2010-07-21T22:14:00.002+08:00

During work..

Ah boy asked me..

"when is your boyfriend going army? "

i wondered awhile...

"errr.. next thurs.."

next thing come to my mind..

"omg...! it's next thurs!!! "

it's just... next week............

next week....

2010-07-20T20:46:00.003+08:00

Alright. Im freaking sleepy right now.
I simply love weekends ! how i wish it wont enddd... aww...
Went to Marina Barrage with Jerald on sunday..
Rainy day..
Didnt get to fly the kite high up..
Shall try it again this weekend!
Tired day!..
And i woke up the next day to work with my eyes closed... x.x

19July2010
Alright..
A bad day for me..
Keep feeling there's something in my left eye..
and doesnt allow me to keep my contact lens comfortably in my eye..
So the whole day i have to keep my left eye without lens.. and right eye with lens..
Everything looks so weird..
=/
Company's annual dinner at scotts hotel after work
Yummy food..
First time i get to try fresh oyster...
Find it quite.. yummy...
Lobsters.. crabs.. prawns..
Sushi!
yumyum...

It's also a day to receive bonus for the colleagues..
Was surprised that my name was called too..
Not bonus but "angbao" ..
(:

Was already tired on sunday..
Wanted to go back home after that..
But was called to follow the ppl to the "TopOne" at bugis to sing k..
stayed until 12am!?!
i seriously freaking tired..
Faster take cab n get back home..

And im so proud of myself..
Because i can survive the whole day with my eyes like that..

20July2010
My eyes are closed...
zzzz

2010-07-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

Created by Dreams n Purpose?

Hope is created by dreams n purpose..

Im created by you...

me...

2010-07-11T20:42:00.003+08:00

What's happening to me recently?
I couldn't really control my temper..
Sorry for venting my anger at you
Sorry..
I wish the weekends could start all over again..
=(

Recently i keep feeling that time is running out..
But i don't know what can i do to make full use of it..
Time is running out...

My heart n mind is feeling so tight..
I need to relax..
i seriously need to...

Right now..
I wish im a rich girl..
And move to taiwan..
The dream place that i wished for..
And
The dream life that i wished for as well...
With a guy who loves me..
Forever..

Is there such a thing as forever??
Once everything dies off..
There's nth as forever..

2010-07-11T12:26:00.000+08:00

2010-07-06T21:04:00.003+08:00

Further studies or two years contract with MOE?

Im confused..

I've been trying to look thru universities courses but none that im interested in..
How to further studies like that??

And i believe i wont continue my current job after 3 months..

So..

What do i want...

Genie.. Genie..
Pls save me..
Pls tell me what is the right choice..

2010-07-04T21:46:00.014+08:00

2010-07-04T21:09:00.003+08:00

3 more weekends..
With you...
Before you go..

3 more weekends...
To make myself stronger..
Without you by my side..

Dont know why..

When i thought of this..
My eyes will be filled with tears..

2010-07-04T20:49:00.003+08:00

Is there a thing to make time stop at the moment i want?

Have..

If im a Doreamon..

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Eunice said something that what i am feeling right now...

Working.. in that environment
Is the place where you don't know who can be your real friends..

I miss sch life..
The fun place..

2010-07-04T15:33:00.001+08:00

Bell wonders..

When can she gets her feets out of this land...

2010-07-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

Recently get to see video on Filial Piety..
In Tvs..
In movie theater like today..
It actually makes me cry...

Right now ..
Channel 8 is showing Money not Enough..
The poor old mother..
Sons pushing her here n there...
Like everyone could predict..
Last choice..
Home for elderly..
...

2010-07-03T23:37:00.006+08:00

My life changes 8 months ago ..
Life with you around is almost complete..
I can totally imagine how my life would be without your existence..
It will be..

It's Monday..
Time for work..
Oh.. end work ler..
Time to go home..

It's Tuesday..
Time for work..
Oh... end work ler..
Time to go home..

Same goes for Wednesday, Thursday..

It's FRIDAY!
FRIDAY!!!!
Time for work..
OHHH!! END WORK LER!!
mmmm...
Well..
Time to go home...

Saturday!
WOOOHOOO!!
Waking up late in the morning..
Looking through the handphone contact list..
*mmmmm*
*mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm*
*mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm*
None..
Stay at home time....

Sunday!
awwww...
Sunday... mmmm...
Another day at home..

MONDAY! argh...
Cycles goes on.............

Well.... i bet this will be my life without you..

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2July 2010

IT'S FRIDAY!
WOOOHOOOOO~!!
Today was a stressed day..
I actually cried during work..
Pressurized..
=/
Hope i will be better...
But im still somehow afraid..

OT until 6.30pm..
Supposed to be longer..
But booked a movie at Downtown East with Jerald at 9.35pm..
Drizzling evening...
Cold...
Surprised to see him outside my workplace..
It's feels somehow very xin fu..
Someone waiting for you..
Thankyouuu =))

Luckily that i left work at about 6.45pm..
Reached at Downtown East at 8.45pm!
Had Taiwan food at Downtown East..
When you gets hungry..
All the food taste yummy...!
But it indeed quite yummy i guess?

awwwww..
Twilight saga: Eclipse..
Edward is soo....... charminggg...
Jacob is so..... muscularrr.....
awwwww.........

3July 2010
Had yummy breakfast with him..
Cheese Prata n Tissue Prata!
Yumm!

Jerald's dad actually sent us to the mrt by car..
Somehow i dont know how should i react...
It just feel so..
awkward.. =/

Traveled to Clarke Quay
BOUGHT STICKY SWEETS!~
Weeee~
That's the only sweet that im willingly to spend so muchh..
Bought 3 different packs..
Normal ones n premium..
Spent about $15 +
=x

Getting to Clarke Quay makes me wanna CLUB!
Although the time was only 4pm..
First time having the chance to see Clarke Quay during day time!
Drizzling day..
It's so nice to have a walk over there..
awwww..
I wanna clubbbbb..

Had yummy lunch with him!
Ramen at Liang Court..
awwww...
The half-cooked egg is soooo yummy!!
And the pork is so soft n yummmy!!!! ~~
BESTTT!!! BESTTT!!!
I totally have the xin fu expression on my faceee!~
^^

Had yummy Takoyaki at Ion Orchard!
YUMM! ^^
Finally i get to eat it after craving it for 1 week!
yayy~~

Had yummy Mr Bean icecream at AMK hub..
Thai horror movie "9 Temples" at AMK hub too
The movie wasnt that good..
Better don't watch.. =/
I seriously want some real HORROR movies pls!
Had Shilin after that..
n...
KOI MILK TEA!!!~ XD

ok..
I ate alot today..
But..
IT'S ALL SO YUMMMY...... =x
hehe xDD

Happy 8th anniversary Dear...
I really somehow forgotten it..
Didnt get to notice recent dates ..
Me love youu~~
Our next anniversary..
you will be in army ler..
=(

2010-06-26T23:08:00.007+08:00

Happy 5th Birthday to Derrick Hoh International Fanclub (Singapore) !
^^
Had a great birthday party at KBox Kallang Leisure park with FC & Derrick!
Yes!! DERRICK!!
DERRICK HOH!!!
^^
The place is soooooo biggg... got pool table somemmore in the room..

Hardly had the chance to get so close to Derrick..
Listening to him singing songs after .. sooo long..
Oh yah.. i was chosen for an acting game..
Oh well.. I cant act lahs!
Somemore act a scene in Avatar? o.0
Looking at Derrick zi high.. lol
He just look so funny.. lol

He actually made oreo cheesecake for us!
Yum yummmm..

Staring at him just in front of me..
Everything seems to unreal..
Like a dream..

End of everything..
Walking out of the kbox..
It really feels like a dream..

Melody n me went off first..
And we actually saw Derrick in front of us at the escalator!
But he is so weird..
went down the escalator n came up and went down again with his "xuan chuan"
He saw us and he looked at me asking me "You all going off too? "
omg! !!

Well...
DERRICK IS SO HANDSOMEEEE ..!!!!
AHHHH~~~ >< ^^

Photo uploaded by Derrick

No photos taken today..
Waiting for FC photos n video ^^

Stadium station~~

NICE PHOTOS! ^^

After the party, met Jerald at Orchard..
awww.. he waited for me for almost 2 hours =/
Sorwieee...

\
Dinner

*frown*

*ahhhh*

*=P*

awww.. the waffle is so pretty...

Juicy grapes

A person came forward to us at Ngee Ann city to sell this..
(:

It reminds me of the couple dolls which i had previously..

2010-06-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

I can feel the routine work already....

Somehow i feel.. being an intern in IFF
a day's job in IFF ..
it somehow feels like it equals to 3 days workload n stress compared to now..

Maybe it's just the beginning..
But..
The beginning n ending of attachment previously..
it's bad memory and legs can really break..!

2010-06-21T20:15:00.001+08:00

Opening an online bakery shop is my dream..

2010-06-20T21:32:00.002+08:00

Looking at the ppl in taiwan having own land..
Living peacefully..
With their loved ones..
That peace..
Attracts me..

Living in taiwan..
Having that kind of life..
Was once my dream..

And i wonder if that continues to be my dream..

There might have disasters..
But..
If i have the chance to live that kind of life...
I think i will also die happily...

Life..
Is too fast...
Isn't it..?

2010-06-20T21:02:00.004+08:00

Boy, im missing you alr...

I've told you i still miss you even though im with you..

You asked me to miss you when im with you..

Don't miss you when you not around with me..

I couldn't..

Im so looking forward to next friday evening..

To see you again..

=(

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Hate waking up in the morning

Hate working from 8.30 to 6.30

Hate reaching home n must go slp n wait for next day to come!

2010-06-16T20:42:00.002+08:00

First day of work..
I got my own table! wahh~.. lol
Anyway.. there's alot of things to learn..
like first thing in morning..
checking raw materials in the processing plant before the staffs starts blending.
Places of the stuffs kept..
Forms to be fill in everyday..
QC checking on colour of the seasonings.. n recording down..
Blah blah..
My brain is totally full ..

Well.. i hate lunch hours..
At such ulu places..
I simply hate lunch hours!
totally reminds me of attachment in IFF..
TOTALLY..

Long working hours is !@%$##@$!!!
But bo bian..
Good thing is near yishun..
I can get back home within 45 mins..

No matter what.. i have to endure 3 months..
Cause i doesnt want to pay for that $1200!

Bless me..

2010-06-15T22:14:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the day i shall begin another stage of my life..
Unsure if this will be the right one for me..
Unsure if this will be fun for me..
Somehow i wish it will be a routine job..
At least i know what i will be doing each day..
without worrying in my dreams..
without worrying for the next day..
It may not sound fruitful for me to gain experience..
But it at least make me..
Feel secure..
Unsure how long this job will last..
But..
I have to at least endure for 3 months..

And it's time for me to be independent..
Leading my life..
Because..
He's going army real soon..
Counting down ..
Left 1 month 2 weeks?
There will be field camps.. etc etc.. trainings..
Which may dont allow me to get contact with him..
Shortest 1 week..
Longest.. months?

I have to learn..
Although i refused to learn.. and doesnt wish to..
But i still have to..
No matter what..

Don't know why..
My tears rolled..
At this point of time..

I miss you..

n

im afraid abt tml..

2010-06-14T23:24:00.006+08:00

Thankyou Jerald (:
For being here..

Back from a short break
Yesterday was a slacking day at Jerald's house..
Gotta some food for Mr Jerald for his lunch at Tampines 1
小霸王 taiwan food..
There's so much variety ! i saw "meesua", fried chicken, milk tea, braised pork rice..
ohhhhhh noooooo.. what should i getttt...
Luckily they got the set meal with fried chicken, meesua, tea leaves egg, milk tea for just $6.50!
weee~

Tv-ed from 5pm until 9.30pm i guess?
Watched "The Break-up" on channel 5..
Ppl always tend to treasure when losing it..
And trying to return to the old times..
But
It's like a gamble..
Win (getting back to old times)
or
Lose (gone)

..

Followed Jerald to meetup with his friends at simpang for a soccer match?
But none of them watch soccer..!

=.=

Oh well..
Bought Bourbon cola n Long island tea from shopnsave..

Bourbon cola taste similar like vodka coke..
i likeee~
But
I vomited at night after drinking bourbon cola..
That time drink vodka coke also vomited in the night..
This time too ..

But i like the feeling of dizziness..

Today
Went to Ehub ..
i miss chalet laa~~
Had breakfast n lunch n dinner at Seoul Garden..
The kimchi was yummmyyy this time (:
Oh well....
I smell so ........ arghh~~

movie..?
but there wasnt nice ones..

Played bowling ..
awwww..
My scoreee.. zzz

Played pool after that..
awwww...
the feel is goneee~~
aiming suckss!
score: 1:1
and i got the 1 point because Jerald enter white ball together with black..
so i got 1 point.. lol
Draww~

Time to get home already...
Sighs.....

I will be starting a different n unpredictable life from Wednesday onwards..
One more day of resting n getting myself ready..

i feeling scared..

i hate lunch period at ulu working places!

reminds me of IFF..

sian

2010-06-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

12 June 2010 (Saturday)

I've gotta myself a external harddisk at PC show (:
500GB for $109 (usual price: $129)

Collected my ticket for Fanclub Birthday Party too~
Went to PC show n MPH bookstore with Jerald, Betrand n Yuxuan..

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11 June 2010 (Friday)
Went to East Coast with Jerald (:
Peaceful.. windy..
Din get to fly kite :(
But it's nice to be there...

But...
IT TAKES A LONG TIME TO GET HOME!
i think i got 2 hours to get home from east coast.. yawns~~

2010-06-12T00:17:00.003+08:00

Everything seems to change totally within this three days..

All resumes i sent.. no response..
Surprisingly a resume that i sent in on tuesday afternoon 3 plus ..
i got the call at 7 plus in the evening on the same day?
Saying that i will be having an interview on thursday morning 10.30am.. will it be okay?
There will be another 2 more ppl going for the interview..
Can you come down tml to recruit express for more details etc..?

The call simply changes everything.. Or it somehow changed my luck?
About 15 minutes later i received another call.. (no caller ID)..
I picked up..
I'VE GETTING 4 NDP TICKETS!
I feeling lucky that night.. haha

But somehow.. wasnt kinda prepared for the job..

Next day..(Wednesday)..
Went to recruit express in the morning 1030am..
Roughly know what's the company about..

Following day .. (Thurs)
Interview day..
After the interview i actually received a call from "Today's career" regarding a lab technician position i applied.. (suddenly all the calls appear)

Another following day (Today, Friday)
Was deciding to off my phone today or switch it to silent mode..
But morning received a call from the agent from recruit express..
Im selected!
But the salary wasnt the amount i wanted..
And it counted as long hours bah.. 8.30 to 6.30..
But rarely have OT.. that's a good thing..
And it's quite near to yishun.. also another good thing.

Actually working in other labs i guess will also be doing the same thing..
The difference is only near or far..

Well.. starting a new life on wednesday onwards..
I hope everything will go well..
Suppose to start on the monday..
but i need time to settle myself down..
and prepare myself..
and.. getting my energy..
From you..

*sry to spoil the plan with ur cousins.. *
But i need the energy...
i know im not strong enough...

sry..

2010-06-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

Had an interview at NP Foods today..
Everything was fine.. at least i feel it much better than MOE's interview..
But well.. there were two other candidates..
Let's see how..

When i know i got this interview..
I actually feel.. omg... am i really going to work full time?
I still wanna play =((

Suddenly feel.. part time suits me more..
Or working in shopping centres makes me feel more "life" rather than industrial areas..
But salary wise.. is really alot of difference.. =/

This mindset keep coming to my mind.. if im really selected for the job..
I really must do ahh..? but.. if i don't.. WHAT ELSE CAN I DO.. =/

i just feel like going club right now! im so fan! =(

2010-06-09T18:04:00.002+08:00

Can i dun be a understanding girlfriend..?

But..

understanding is needed to maintain the r/s...

Isnt it..

2010-06-08T21:10:00.002+08:00

WEEE~~

i got 4 NDP ticketsss~~

Second time i got it~

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

But Jerald cannot go with me.. =(
He's in army...
Soap..=(

2010-06-06T16:30:00.001+08:00

2010-06-04T14:07:00.001+08:00

I kinda start to enjoy the feeling of high and slightly drunk..

2010-06-04T13:59:00.002+08:00

Whenever i enter Wallet Shop, i tend to see this brand of wallet..
because it has nice designs... but the price always keeps me off..
Never dream that this wallet will be in my hands one day..
Thank you Jerald (:
*she bu de use~~*

2010-06-03T23:09:00.005+08:00

2 June 2010

LADIES NIGHT AT ZIRCA/REBEL (:

I seriously in love with Volka Coke (:
First time met up with Jerald's friends..
Kinda felt weird..
But well.. meet lorh~

Supposed to meet them at 8.30pm at clarke quay..
But.....
You should know what's next..
Late.......
Wait.! not me but them..

Walked around in The Central..
Ok. I admit.. i kinda get lost over there..
The directions are like.. no use? =x

There's a sign putting cheers.. but when i walked to the end..
It's dead end? how to walk?! and where's the freaky shop?!
Rawrr.. nvr mindd...

Didnt find the shop but then i found "STICKY" SHOP!
SWEETS!! AHH~ SWEETS!
I finally found that sweet!
I know im going clubbing and i didnt actually bring a bag..
But if i dont get the sweet like.. NOW? i duno when i will go there again!?
So.. i bought 2 packs!
Yum yum....
I got the urge to get more lorh!
But.....
nvr mind! future! (:

Ladies night queue was ... LONG....
and there's Caucasians ..
Why they dont need to queue up!? =/

had 5 drinks coupons but i only used up 3 ..
Vodka coke.. Vodka coke... Vodka coke..
in love with that.. lol

Drank champagne.. (first time trying)
Drank Vodka sprite..
Drank Vodka Cranberry..
All Vodka~

Went to dancefloor with Jerald..
Played until 3am..
I want more i want more!
But they going back =((

Got one of Jerald's friend actually got abit drunk?
The reaction of his was quite funny.. lol

Conclusion..
His friends are fun ppl..
How i wish i have such friends
(:

Overnight..
And i actually went to toilet and vomited at duno what time..
but i know it's still darkk~

During the first clubbbing with my clique..
i said i wanna try clubbing one more time..

After the second clubbing today..
I actually want to go again..
Oh no..~

2010-05-31T23:05:00.007+08:00

Happy 7th anniversary Jerald! (:

Certain unhappy things happened recently..
Hope it wont happen again.. :(

30May 2010
Finally get to meet you after 10 days..
First time have the chance to go the IKEA..
cause i nvr knew the way to get there ..
always passby when taking bus 969 and always wondering how to get there.. lol
Had yum yum food..
Had cute animals..
Had cute SHARK! (:

Jerald and his new friend

Poor friend..
Has to be put on the cutting table.. :(

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31 May 2010

Went to aljunied to get my cheque..
Met Jerald..
Went to Marina square had subway for lunchy..

Jerald got me a wallet from wallet shop.. >< >< *guilty*
After that went to Justbuns to return our uniform..
awww..
i miss working there seriously..
I miss rolling the buns! I miss the ppl there! !!!!
Watched Shrek! :D

So long didnt get to watch a movie with Jerald ..
Finally..!
It's so comfortable..~~ :D
Caught a small domo ! :D

But sorryyyyy.. didnt get to catch a Ninja domo for youuuu :(

Had dinner at "The Hamburger" @ 313 somerset
Yummm...
Thanks for the treat!
*guilty *
=x

Done!

Thankyou for everything Jerald..
*loves* ^^

2010-05-27T19:23:00.005+08:00

Chocolate Mud Cake (:

Chocolate Base

Egg base

Dry Ingredient Base

Container

Tadaa~

Baking

Chocolate Sauce

:D

First time i make "Pretty cakes" xD
Hope it taste good too .. lol

2010-05-25T22:39:00.003+08:00

Rebonded my hair today after work =)
my hair short liaooo~ =((

awwww..
My eyebags...

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19 May 2010

Gift by Jerald..
Out of a sudden..

The paper bag is so cuteee xD

2010-05-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

Rebonded my hair today after work =)
my hair short liaooo~ =((

awwww..
My eyebags...

2010-05-23T20:37:00.003+08:00

I gonna be racist from today onwards!

You this stupid customer forced me to!

ARGH!!!

Totally spoil my day!

#@#$^%&^#$%@#Y%$^%$&$^#@

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It's sunday today!!! and im working and OT for 2 hours!

Im totally drain out..

Dying..

I miss going out.. and have fun... =/

haiiii....=(((

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I think my body is getting worse..

Duno why recently i get dizziness and feel like fainting ever since the day at Jerald house

which i nearly felt im really fainting..

Or i should say..

The first time i felt..

that feeling..

The feeling of no feeling..

And the next moment wondering why am i doing here..

2010-05-21T20:57:00.006+08:00

Will be leaving JustBuns on 25th May after working for near 2 months over there..
I will miss rolling buns!
And my dear rolling buddy Rina! (:

I was supposed to be sacked on the second day actually because i dun wish to serve customers..
but the boss actually asked me to stay on and do the back duties first..

TADAA~ worked for quite long ler.. as a part timer..
Low pay i should sayyyy... T.T
But well.. that's my choice..

Yesterday during work..
Morning, The big boss actually came down to see the shop..
and the new member, Bryan..
And talked to me as well.. ><

Asking me what will i be doing after quitting.. studying? or ?
I said working..
He actually offered me to do full time at JustBuns while looking for other jobs..
Salary can nego..
Well.. i just said i'll consider..

Afternoon..
The small boss came down..
Well.. same..
Come and talk to me..
About the same thing..
But i think he dunno the big boss said the same thing in the morning to me..
Well.. Repeated..
Offer me a full time job..
Salary for Filipinos: $1000
Salary for Diploma: $1200
Salary for Uni: $1400

6 days per week..
9 and half hours per day..

wahh...
$1200...
6 days...
...

nahhh.....

Well..
Everyone seems to have a stable job..

What about me?

Im feeling so.. exhausted..
=(

2010-05-21T20:57:00.003+08:00

I envy couples whom can maintain their relationship for years..

And..

Getting married..

2010-05-19T00:35:00.004+08:00

The third time..

Broken..
Again..
Piece-ing back..
One by one..

Sometimes.. i just wish..
you can think about how i feel..
Put yourself in my shoes..

I just couldnt..

Maybe.. one day..
I might choose the loser way out..

To let myself off..
And to let you off..

..

I will never eat mangoes again..
Bugis will never be my favourite place anymore..

I heard you..
My heart was broken..

Tears..
Will still remain as tears..

2010-05-17T22:34:00.002+08:00

It's Graduation Day..

Welcome to the world..

I have a graduation teddy!

(:

Thanks Jerald!

2010-05-16T22:28:00.003+08:00

Dunno why my tears starts to roll down when i thought of..
How to survive after July...
Without you..
T.T

2010-05-16T22:07:00.002+08:00

Tml

Graduation Day

Yes..

My Graduation Day..

17 May 2010

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Sometimes i wonder..
Studying soooooo many years...
it's just for that.. minimum 3 certificates..
PSLE
GCE 'O' Levels
Diploma
Or there might be more in the future...
But.. minimum..

At the end of the day..
It's about..
how to get as much money into your pocket every month with that..
3 laminated papers

Family..
Doesnt care if you are graduated..
Or whether you have a graduating ceremony..

Because..
How you suppose to get a job and earn money back..
Is the main thing..

Life..
Is just so..
=/
I have no words to describe..

Well..
This will be my own ..
"Graduation"

No one is gonna attend..

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Everyone knows what they want..

Do i.. ?

I dun want to stuck in this..
But..
I hate to start all over again..
Confidence..
Are gone..

Purpose of life..
Are gone too..

And it will be almost gone..
At then end of July..
Because..
I really have to face my life..
Alone..

2010-05-10T21:50:00.002+08:00

I had a bad nightmare last night..

It was... first time i felt so real and scared..
But i was somehow *phew* that im awake from that dream..

luckily..

The dream was not real..
opposite from life..

now i believe..
dreams are opposite of life..

Instead, i got compliment .. (:

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During work,
my "rolling buddy" shared that her house actually got ... "that thing"
Normally i only read books or hear stories about it..
But..
Im hearing from a real story in front of me!
omg....

2010-05-07T21:21:00.002+08:00

Back to NYP today to collect graduation attire with Jerald..

Walking from Yck mrt to Nyp..
I miss the route..
I miss the environment..
I miss the atrium..
I miss the food..
I miss the familiar stall owners..
I miss the smell of N6!
awwwwwwwwwwww....
I miss the equipments in N6 too..
lol..

haii~~`

2010-05-06T22:05:00.001+08:00

CHOCOLATE~~ xD

*bubbles bubbles*

The puzzle..
We completed together..
xD

2010-05-05T21:56:00.001+08:00

6th month anniversary Pressie for you
(:
Love you

2010-05-05T21:31:00.005+08:00

It had been so long that i have to use a weekly planner to plan my schedule..

13 May..
An important day..
Need to get prepared..
Im getting nervous already..
Im not ready for it!
But..
It might be the only chance!
!!

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Had a short break ..

First time talking to Jerald's mum..
First time lunch-ing with Jerald's mum..
Second time eating Jerald's mum cook de dinner..
First time sitting in Jerald's family car drive by his mum..
Nervous~ Cool~

First time singing kbox with Jerald..
Nice~
xD

At first thought..
kbox 2-7pm...
5 hours..
can we sing that long?
Had lunch with his mum and spending some time here and there..
We reached Marina square kbox at 3pm..
Sing until 7pm..
o.0
Surprisingly we can sing for 4 hours!
xD

2010-05-01T17:07:00.004+08:00

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

I HATE MYSELF WITH THIS STUPID CHARACTER!

I JUST SIMPLY WANT TO GO TAIWAN..

THE FIRST TRIP IN MY LIFE..

BUT THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS STOPPING ME!

and often i felt guilty..

Freedom.. is not always given to me..
I envy those.. who has freedom..

This time..
Freedom is given to me..
But..
Guilty-ness.. is stopping me to tell me what should i do next..

Sometimes i simply hate myself being born in this world and being the 3rd child..

Ever since im in this world..
i always wish to have my own room..
But they.. who has their room..
take it for granted..

Being the 3rd child..
comparing... n comparing...
I always tried my best in my studies..
Trying my best..
Not to make my mum feel down because of my results..
Always try my best to be a good student..
Trying my best not to repeat studies..
Trying my best to be a good girl..

..

I.. ever since i knew this world..
Is always in my own space..
Kept in this world..
Duno how does this world looks like..
I always envy other families..
Whose their parents will bring their kids to the outside world..
Maybe now..
Even a small little kid can show off to me that they have been to whatever whatever country..
Without spending a cent..

Well.. i know this world there are many people who are less fortunate than me..
Because at least..
i have a home..
I should be thankful enough already..

But..

..
..

2010-05-01T12:44:00.002+08:00

I freaking fed up with finding jobs and hearing about asking about jobs!

Everyday either will
-Checking email for job updates..
-Getting concerns from friends and family whether found any job
- Sending resumes
-Thinking about money

RAWR!

haii~~

2010-05-01T01:40:00.003+08:00

30 April 2010

There's no 31st this month.. so today shall be the 6th month anniversary! (:

HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY
DEAR JERALD (:

Half a year ler...
Feels together for very long ler..
but sounds so short..
it's only half a year!

Wish there will be more anniversaries coming !

LOVE YOU!

xD

2010-04-27T19:10:00.004+08:00

HEY SCHOOL LIFE?

I WANNA TO HAVE SCHOOL LIFE LAHS..!

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Hey friends!

where are you guys?!

Let's Meetup!

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I wanna club again!

Jerald Ong!

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Many words are often left unspoken...

2010-04-26T21:09:00.001+08:00

I treasure present... after looking thru my past..

2010-04-25T20:15:00.002+08:00

4 days faster pass..

looking forward to friday and next weekend..

a..

short break (:

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Roughly 3 more months to

29 July 2010..

Time is running out..

Sometimes will wonder..

What takes us so long..

2010-04-19T20:53:00.003+08:00

BUNS BUNS BUNS!

I SMELL SO " BUNS" !

I WANT PLAY PLAY PLAYYY!

*Feel like going K !!*

=((

2010-04-17T20:50:00.001+08:00

There's no future for meeeeeeeeeeeee!

2010-04-13T20:29:00.001+08:00

I'm confused..

What do i want my life to be.. =(

2010-04-12T21:47:00.001+08:00

I want a "chalet"..
I want fun..
I want peace..

2010-04-12T16:35:00.002+08:00

My aim for now..

Earn as much money in this part time job..

To fulfill my wish..

Might be my last..

2010-04-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

Where will this route lead me to..

2010-04-09T20:40:00.003+08:00

It's FRIDAY~

Working straight three days..
is...
hell~~
TIRED NEH!
Waking at 7.20am each day..
i definitely need slp!
x.x

Jerald went to Redang holidayy~
eeyeer!
But will be back on sunday night..
Days without seeing him online in msn ..
Feels weird..

Yesterday met up with him after my work before he went to Redang at night..
Each meetup with him..
Gave me the energy to survive each day..
*Silly girl*

This meetup..
Hope can let me survive till he returns =)

POOL with Jerald at Douby (:
3:2 !
hehe..
won him won him.. =x
nahh~~ this time not counted.. play for fun only..
was too tired after work..
When he gets back.. shall find one day to play properly! xD

well...
After working for 2 weeks..
i wonder..
what future job do i want to do..
definitely not this..
But.. what else?
mmm..
NYP is not hiring this year..
=/

*lost*

2010-04-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person
that wasn't supposed to ever let us down,
probably will

You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts.

You'll fight with your best friend
or maybe even fall in love with them,
and you'll cry because
time is flying by

So take too many pictures,
laugh too much,
forgive freely,
and love like you've never been hurt.

Life comes with no guarantees,
no time outs,
no second chances
you just have to live life to the fullest,
tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off,
speak out,
dance in the pouring rain,
hold someone's hand,
comfort a friend,
fall asleep watching the sun come up,
stay up late,
and smile until your face hurts

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all,
live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset
is a second of happiness
you can never get back

2010-04-06T21:47:00.003+08:00

How much time do we have..

At age 4 success is not peeing in your pants.
At age 12 success is having friends.
At age 16 success is having a drivers license.
At age 20 success is having sex.
At age 35 success is having money.
At age 50 success is having money.
At age 60 success is having sex.
At age 70 success is having a drivers license.
At age 75 success is having friends.
At age 80 success is not peeing in your pants.

LOL..

what is this..

2010-04-05T01:33:00.000+08:00

2010-04-04T15:12:00.005+08:00

3 April 2010

Went to meet Jerald while he has his Yamaha interview at PS..
But the pay is only $5 per hour.. eeyeer! so little =.=

After that, went to Esther's house ..

Group of gamblers playing mahjong.. lol..
Esther, Binglin, Betrand, Jerald..

Me.. i playing with Binglin's Doggy ( Angel)
First time i get so close to a doggy..
Can rubbed her face..
Play with her ears..
Can carry her..
awwwww~

^^
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4 April 2010

Sian! im so sian with work can???!
Later working.. argh!
5pm to 10pm..
i hate pm shift lah!
And it's a SUNDAYYY! =(
Hope today is well for me..
I want to switch job lah! ~~
F&B job isnt that EASY! =(((

*IMISS JERALDDDDD! *
=((
How i wish he's inside my pocket..
Or im in his pocket! T.T

2010-03-31T21:43:00.001+08:00

*warmth..*

2010-03-31T00:13:00.000+08:00

Happy 5th Month Domo (:

Gone thru alot of things..
Hope..
We will always be..
For each other..
*Loves*

2010-03-30T21:34:00.003+08:00

Now i understand..
The feeling of..
Having a stroll with your love and a doggy at night..

It's peaceful..

It seems to be a dream..
that i always wished for in my life..

Monday..
Was the day..and the only day
That I felt so peaceful and stress-less ..
Ever since i knew about this world..